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Crumpled In The Dark
Crumpled In The Dark
By: Azaria Rahma
In her thought she’s alone
She’s just got no hope
She’s just an empty soul
With nobody around
Weight all over her head
She wants it all to end
Pulls her hair stressed
Scratches her wrist satisfied
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Bubbly
Bubbly
By Thorny Petals
Autumn, 2020.
That was the first time I met her. She approached me with a bubbly smile painted on her face. Back then, I was too afraid to open up with people, especially during the autumn. It is my favorite season, and I don’t want to hate it. But later on, she plucked every thorn in my heart and gently touched it with her dainty hands. I didn’t have any other choice than to let her enter the space inside me after she knocked on it carefully.
I never expected that it would be the most precious encounter that I had with someone, considering how I almost gave up and locked the space inside me, not letting anyone, not even myself, enter. She taught me how to love and how it felt to be loved. She was everything to me.
I remember how she grabbed my hands, taking me to watch the meteor shower on a cold night. The night breeze pierced through my bones, but she immediately pulled me into the warmest hug. Dare to say, that was a hug that could defrost an icy mountain. If only there was a way to capture a hug, I would like to make it last forever. That was my first time, hoping that I could stop the time and make the moment last longer than I needed.
She was bubbly. She was the sunshine. And I was the sunflower who kept looking at her, following every movement that she made. She guided me, holding both my hands and embracing my soul. She never missed a day, singing me a lullaby that could put me into the deepest, most peaceful sleep ever.
Days passed, weeks passed, and months passed. Today is spring 2024. All these years that I spent with her, I thought that she would always be bubbly. Unfortunately, my wild guess hit the rock bottom. It was wrong. I was wrong.
I noticed that she changed, but I decided to ignore it. My bad. That was the worst mistake that I’ve ever made in my life. I thought she was just tired. I thought she just needed a tiny space for herself, just like she usually did. My wild guess wasn’t wrong this time, but I never thought that this time she wanted to walk out of my life.
It was almost 6 a.m., and she touched my hands. Her touches were cold. Weird. It’s supposed to be warm, isn’t it? But again, I decided to ignore it. I pretended that it was nothing. It was just a winter breeze that sneakily popped up in the middle of springtime.
“Let’s just end it here.”
That was the least I wanted to hear from her this morning. I tried not to be surprised, acting like a fool even though I was almost unable to breathe. My heart skipped some beats. I tried to find a little glimpse of funny jokes through her eyes, but I couldn’t find them. She meant it.
“Why?” My voice cracked as I felt tears stream down my face without invitation, still hoping that she was joking, yet she looked away, hiding her tears from my sight.
And a second later, I heard it from her side. My wild guess was right, and I regretted why I kept ignoring my guts to ask her earlier than today. She was tired. She had enough of me. She had enough of us. She said she couldn’t afford a relationship that I needed. She lost herself in the middle of the road.
Without asking a single question, I knew it was all because of me. I was the mere reason why she felt this way. I was the one who made her lose her lights. I was the one who pulled her away from the universe where she was supposed to feel safe. I was the only reason.
I spoke no words after she finished talking, and she let go of my hands. For the last time, she caressed my hair softly and whispered an apology. An unnecessary apology, because I should be the one who needed to apologize for ruining her perfect world. It was me who couldn’t afford a relationship that she needed.
Spring, 2024.
She was bubbly, and I was the one who popped the bubble away.
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A Kindling of Hope
A Kindling of Hope
In this barren land, you sought hope,
Yet found only sorrow and anguish.
Yet you prevailed,
Against the storm that razed this barren land.
Yet you persisted,
For your soul slowly withered.
Yet you stood,
For your heart slowly crumbled.
Yet you fought,
For a kindling of hope.
A kindling of hope,
For all its worth.
– Caelum
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Organization Structure of EDSA
On Sunday (23/1), the English Department Student Association (EDSA) collaborated with EDSA Journalist Team (EJT), PeBei Family Theater, Peer Assisted Learning Program (PALP), and PBI Media Syndicate held the opening ceremony of the 38th English Education Department anniversary event or known as the English Vaganza & EDSA Championship (EVA ECHA). This event took place in a hybrid way, at the Ahmad Dahlan University Medical Amphitheater and on Zoom Meeting.
As reported before, EVA ECHA 2022 has the theme “SPARKS YOUR SOUL AND LIGHT UP YOUR FUTURE WITH YOUR TALENT”, this event lasts until March 13th, 2022. The execution of this year’s event is different from the last year’s event. The committee together with the approval of the English Education study program committee dared to carry out the opening ceremony in blended method. Where it can be attended directly by the lecturers, and then delegated by inviting invited guests, inviting extraordinary presenters to enliven this series of Milad events.
The series of opening events included reading Quran by Dimas Kurnia Putra, speeches by chief executive of this event, chief of EDSA (English Students Association), chief of English Education study program and dean of FKIP UAD, launching of the EVA ECA logo, launching of the PBI the Next Educator logo, launching of activity pamphlets that includes competition pamphlets, podcasts, talk shows, and webinars, entertainment from PBI students as well as PBI TALK and MBKM special events.
“The impression for the EVA ECHA opening event was extraordinary because of the interesting series of events with the PBI Talk and MBKM Talks which presented great speakers, the chief executive said. During EVA ECHA, various scientific and religious competitions and webinars were held such as PBI Looking for Stars, 4th of ADEG, MTQ Competition, EDSA Science Shop (EWI), MBKM Talk, PBI Talk, Webinars, TOEFL discussion, Undergraduate Conference.
In this activity there are several competitions that will be carried out not only in the academic field but also in non-academic. In this academic competition there is poetry and short stories, while for non-academics there are poster designs photography, dancing and singing and there is also an MTQ competition. “The hope for this event is that the entire series of events will run smoothly and be successful until the closing,” said the chief executive.
Luluk&Nurinsani
For celebrating the Gist anniversary of FKIP UAD, Badan Eksekutif Mahasiswa FKIP UAD has held an opening ceremony which was held on Tuesday, December 28, 2021, yesterday. For this event, BEM FKIP UAD used the theme “‘Increase Your Creativity with FKIP Ceremony.” “As for the concept, we provide collaboration and a forum for students in this event, so it is hoped that through the concept of this theme, this event can be a place to accommodate the creativity of all FKIP UAD students.” said Yudha as a Chief Executive Event.
In carrying out the mobility of all activities and the flow of the opening ceremony itself, unfortunately it is still carried out online with YouTube for the platform because of considering that there is still a pandemic.
“For the event, we are fully online, but our committee has decided to go offline to campus, there are more or less 15 committee members who come to campus,” said Ulfiana as Student Governor of BEM FKIP UAD. In the FKIP Ceremony, the initial agenda was opened with remarks by the deputy dean, after the agenda the ribbon cutting was symbolically carried out by the FKIP BEM governor.
The most interesting thing in this event was that BEM FKIP was holding a campus tour that invited HMPS representatives from FKIP, LSO, IMM, etc, and they were introduced all of the student organizations in FKIP UAD to the audience at home. And the last things, that in the middle of the event and at the end of the event, there will be entertainment from the Ormawa who show their talents and interests at the FKIP Ceremony stage.
In this case, the committee successfully held the event. However, in its implementation there are still some obstacles experienced. As said by Ulfiana in the interview session. “Today’s obstacles were quite/ a lot, from the expected and the unexpected. The expected was related to borrowing a place because it was still in the pandemic. The unexpected were technical problems, such as setting up from Zoom to live YouTube and others”. Broadly speaking, today’s activities are not only to commemorate the Gist anniversary of FKIP, namely to strengthen relations within the FKIP family and become a gathering place for educational programs. In this regard, Yudha hopes that FKIP can continue to shine brightly and be able to produce Islamic students who are competent in their respective fields.
Yuhyin&Diana
On 18 December 2021, student activity units, Tater PeBel in collaboration with HMPS EDSA and Tater Roeang 28, performed a drama entitled “Cipta Rasa”. It’s about students complaining about college life. “Cipta Rasa” is where someone can tell all of their thoughts freely, without some border, some fear, some clumsiness from the deepest part of the heart,” Isfa, head of production.
They had problems about the show. Teater PeBel is practicing with many obstacles. Three month is a little time for some casts to do practice, and they are doing practice in a pandemic situation and it’s made them deal with “Jam Malam” at college. Another problem is their lack of cast. It’s also the reason why they do collaboration. “Not just that, we do collaboration because we want to share for all our friends, about how it feels doing drama on stage,”Adit, director. With all of the problems, they can greatly present a show with over 100 audience members even though they limit it to just 70 people.
Teater PeBel didn’t expect how big the interest of people in drama would be. Audience might have been longing to see the show in an offline situation. Adit as director, didn’t expect that. He told me about the H-1 reservation; it’s reserved for more than 100. As an actress, Nirwana had difficulty doing “Cipta Rasa” drama. She needs to keep the mood because they can’t match the mood of all the cast. And also the cast isn’t coming from the same class, 17, 18, 19, and 20. With different activities they do the practice together. And in practice, the storyline can change to suit casts or because they are not so related. It’s the function of practice.
The interesting part of “Cipta Rasa” is they make a restaurant known as “burjo” for their setting It is because “burJo” is the fundamental place for students. Everyday students gather at “burjo” to eat or just hang out. At “burjo” anything can happen, maybe a fight suddenly happens or maybe some little thought appears.
We have another point of view as well from the lead of Teater PeBel, Bagas. He told us that it is very difficult to make sure anything goes well in three months of preparation. He gets leaked to observe his character as Pak Burjo and is forced to perform maximally. He hopes that the next project, there will be regeneration from Teater Peel itself and make the biggest project at the next time.
Iin&Firna
Mount Semeru eruption natural disaster. Based on data from the National Disaster Management Agency (BNPB) Monday (06/12) at 20.15 WIB, at least 22 people died, while 22 people were declared missing and 56 others were injured. The eruption also affected 5,205 people. This happened because there was no early warning of an eruption of Mount Semeru. (Speaks of residents). Badan Eksekutif Mahasiswa (BEM) of the Faculty of Teacher Training and Education, Ahmad Dahlan University, held a fundraiser for the victims of the Mount Semeru eruption disaster. Which will be held on Friday, December 17, 2021, at 14.10 WIB, which is located at the intersection of Jalan Lowanu, Yogyakarta.
Wanda Anida Desiana Putri, as a member of Badan Eksekutif Mahasiswa (BEM) Ahmad Dahlan University Faculty of Law, believes that the purpose of this fundraising is “as a sense of our humanity to our fellow victims of natural disasters in Semeru. And also as a form of our humanity together.”
Nur Syarifudin Hardianto as a member of Badan Eksekutif Mahasiswa(BEM) of the Faculty of Teacher Training and Education said that “after all the funds were collected, both online and offline donors. Later we will distribute it through Lazismu DIY ”
And for the fundraising participants themselves, it includes all members of the Student Executive Board (BEM) at Ahmad Dahlan University. And also followed by several other ormawa such as IMM (Muhammadiyah Student Association), Nur Syarifudin Hardianto himself confirmed that “for the Faculty of Teacher Training and Education itself we invite three commissariats who are in the Faculty of Teacher Training and Education. And yes, IMM also joined.”
With this fundraising, at least we have alleviated the problems that are being faced by the victims of the Mount Semeru eruption disaster. And we hope that the victims can return to their normal lives, and let’s pray together, that this natural disaster will soon pass and the victims can carry out their activities as usual.
Tika&Yuni
PBI virtual camp event (Makrab PBI 2021). The event was held by the English Education Study Program on 30-31 October 2021, which involved members of the PBI unit as the event committee and certainly involved new students in 2021 as participants. Of course, there are many interesting facts that we can reveal regarding this event based on our interviews with some students who participated in this PBI virtual camp event.
This year, the theme of the PBI virtual camp event is focused on elevating the local cultural values, as revealed by our first resource person, the chairman of the PBI virtual camp organizing committee. “At this year’s PBI Virtual Camp event, we raised the theme “Evoke Our Local Culture” which means “Membangkitkan Budaya Lokal Kita”, Culture plays an important role in human life. As we know, human civilization on earth is the result of culture. It is noted that Indonesia is one of the countries that has the richest local culture in the world.”
It is expected for us to be more familiar with our traditional cultures, especially in the games and languages of our ancestors. It will certainly make us nostalgic and grow our love for traditional games that are increasingly rare in today’s era. By holding this PBI virtual camp event, it is hoped that students can get to know each other better for those in different semesters and different classes. So that in the future good communication can be established between fellow students at PBI. As we know that in an event there must be obstacles and disagreements in the process.
“How to coordinate all aspects? Of course, it is not an easy thing to do. In my opinion, the most important thing to coordinate everything is good communication. Why? Because in a committee, there will definitely be conflicts or contradictions. Whether it’s about ideas, characters, or others. That is why conflict must be controlled so that it does not interfere with the performance of each part. There must be coordination. The committee does not belong to just one part, but it belongs to all members of the committee. There must be effective coordination so that there are no errors in work. In this regard, it is necessary to avoid the occurrence of miscommunication.
Although there were several miscommunications during yesterday’s activity, Alhamdulillah, overall our event was able to run well. Thanks to the hard work of the entire committee and also those who participated in helping the continuity of our event, thank you.
The 2021 PBI virtual camp event was a suceess with a very well-planned and well-thought-out preparation from the committees. It was answered in the response of one of the participants, he said: “I am so happy with this event, especially with such a cool mentor. Through this event, we were able to gain a lot of experience that will help us expand our relationship with the 2021 batch and the previous batch. Apart from that, we also get to know more about PBI units such as EDSA, EJT, PBI Theatre Family, and others. In the process of making videos, we don’t feel burdened even though there are some obstacles, actually, it will add to our experience in the future if next year we get the opportunity to become coordinators like the committees now.”
The message for all of us is not to feel burdened in doing it, enjoy it, and then we will feel happy in participating in the event.
Nurinsani&Iin Nur